Life Questions

My life is in the air right now.

I am once again unemployed. The new president at CTRF (where I was working) decided she wanted to bring in her own people, namely her own assistant.
I got a job as an admin working for a place that is TWO traffice lights from where I live but it turned out that they needed me to do clerical stuff where I was on my feet all day long. Needless to say, I am walking with Abel and cannot physically do that. I came home from work in incredible pain everyday. I finally talked to them about it because it was not the job described to me when it was offered. They told me that since I could not do it and there was no way of modifying the job to my physical needs they would have to look for someone who could do it. I hated hearing that because I need a paycheck but I also have to look out for my health. I was also working with a kind of creepy wierd guy. He was really nice just kind of wierd. He mumbled so badly when he talked that it was so hard to understand him and he had one REALLY long pinky finger nail. The rest of his nails were normal sized. I don't usually go around and see how long men keep their finger nails but it is hard not to notice when one is looking like he wants to make some world record.

What they did is probably illegal but it's not worth fighting about it because why would I want to work somewhere where I am not really wanted or else despised.

So now I am looking for work again.

I am also looking for a new place to live. Kate and I decided that our palce is too small for two people and that we are getting on each other's nerves so it would be better for our friendship if one of us moved. I decided that I would move because we are on the 2nd floor of a house and the stairs are difficult at times. The rent is just really good for 2 people. Really good.
I looked at some apartments today and I found a really cute studio that I really really like.
I'm not making a decision yet because I want to know where I am going to work next. If I don't have a job in 3 weeks from yesterday I am going to move back to Philadelphia.

I just have so many questions because life has been hard for me since I moved here. I am wondering if God is trying to teach me something through it becauuse let's face it, my life has never been easy, or if it just means I am meant to be home.

Last night Sarah H. asked me what I was passionate about and it is here in Chicago. I love it here. I love the relationships I have made. There is a lot of social stuff here too. But, I love my family and miss them. My youngest sister and her husband are moving to Bangladesh for at least a year and I would like to be with them before they leave. My grandparents are also getting older. But I am not happy when I am home. I am happy here. But maybe I could be happy there.

I have too many questions and I feel like I have a tight deadline to figure them all out.