Goodbyes

I was wondering today if I am making the right decision and I came to the conclusion I was because it is what needs to be done. Trista is moving to Bangladesh and I do not know when I can see her again. Did you know tickets to Bangladesh cost $1500 - 3,000? I do not have that kind of money. I also know that if I did not decide to go home now I would be planning on going home this fall. It just seems like the right thing to do because of circumstances as they are... no job...no home...sister moving...missing family...constant beeding...MS getting worse...no insurance.

I keep telling myself that life is never permanent. There is always a chance I could come back. I am really hoping that will be 6 months or so from now because I am really going to miss all the people I have come to love out here. Goodbyes are getting really hard but I am trying to fit in as many as possible this week. Tonight I am going out with Bobo, Wednesday I am going to go out to Willow and hopefully meet up with Jo, Thursday is my contest and all of the Excueses people are coming out to support me, Friday I will be saying goodbye to the Thornwood people, Saturday Jenna is planning a going away party out at the Reef and next Tuesday I am hoping to get together with Nicole. I think my parents are coming next Thursday and we will pack up the truck and leave as soon as it is completed.

Who knows, maybe I will get back home and make new friends out there and not want to come back. It does make me sad to think that way though.