Thoughts

My grandpop is in a coma right now. They don't expect him to wake from it and they also said there was significant brain damage. Seems he went into cardiac arrest and right Grandmom needs to decide if she wants them to recussitate him if it happens again. I don't envy her because that cannot be an easy decision. You want your husband to live but you want him the way he was but you also do not want to feel like you are sentencing him to death.

I keep trying to tell myself that I should be jealous because he is going to see Heaven before any of us! Can you imagine what he is going to experience yet, here we are trying to keep him confined to a hospital bed and attached to a ventilator? I guess we can be so selfish because we have not experienced heaven yet and do not fully understand what is awaiting him. We only know what it is like to have him with us.

Grandmom asked me if I would sing "Because He Lives" at his funeral. I am not ready for questions like that.