Men and Why I am Tired

For a short time in the latter half of 2004 I was involved with a guy named Jon. He was not someone with whom I should ever have gotten involved but he was HOT so I did. Looking back I wonder what I was thinking.

The only thing we had in common was not listening to mainstream music and The Kids in the Hall (which is pretty big in my book). He was also one of the most intelligent men I have ever talked to. We always had good discussions.

Things between us ended rather ubruptly under unfortunate circumstances. I would still see him around because we had a lot of mutual friends. It was hard to see him for so many different reasons. Then one night I hung out with him and was able to say to myself "I'm not interested in this guy" and I was so proud of myself for finally getting over Johnny.

Then last night it happened. A friend called and informed me that Jon is dating someone else. I should not care right? He was not what I needed or really wanted but why was I up all night crying and unable to sleep?

Emotions are fickle. Sometimes I wish I did not have them. I should just be happy that Jon found someone new and be done with it but I keep wondering what she has that I don't but try to remind myself that it doesn't really matter because she is probably a better fit for him than I am. I know he is not a good fit for me. In fact when I was with him I became someone I did not like. I am 26 and it is time I focused on "marriage material", which Jon is not.

I just wish he would not come around my bar anymore.